I had admit the lately food source manifestation stifling source transmission into stomachache...must relearn

today is saturday. saturday the 22nd...i think. I want to say alot bit by bit. the shapes the crepes the promises that are only being kept by the skin of my teeth and being on the computer means I cannot recieve the call that is supposed to come at 12:30 today so the skin is thinning. cutting this short.

the time has passed long and long and I spend more time outside than in so the computer is underfed.
at least it does not wilt like my plants...but maybe it does or I do. I met a French girl that made me start to
speak in that language again and also think in it again. I feel like it might be interesting to try and think in
bicycle or rock because I develop different personality traits when engaged in translation. Maybe it is just
that I was 18 when I last really spoke and it makes me feel young again.....ahhhh I have seen too many
hollywood movies....

Listening to Indeterminacy by jcage dtudor just good. goingto sleep sounds love

Possibilities emerge that are little but the sheltered remains of my self worth.
Craning my neck to see the various futures that may or may not push through.
Somewhere on this map is a little man that has to get up early.

I saw a play today
I have a job now
I was listening to the little rascals' soundtrack
and Bill Dixon in Italy
nice day 25 miles of biking city and country

Please Understand

Looking for a job is positively heinous...then again if the process was not so routine I might actually get to n-joy it. Like in the old days before all the paper work I suppose one just walked in and made the scene talkin your trash, agree on the caash and then slippity slap kickin it live 9 to 5!! Or maybe please sir can I sweep your chimneys for a tuppence?? Anyhooo the debtors prison is a real thing now so I best get the PMA out and tie it on tight!

nine weeks
ifnotmore I
seen: please
help written
on every brick
sentimental
or shameless
the wisteria
still grows.
maybe planets
can align like
food groups.

Wonderful!
You made
clay in small
batches. Fill
the holes and
slip your
hands under
your gilded
ass. The rent
is still due
on the first.

So yeah...here we are agian. I am going to try and get work at the Zoo today. I will attempt to cater. I know there is a joke about feeding the animals or something in there but it is 9am and my funny hat is not on yet. Something occured to me recently. That people talk with an audience in mind. Always. You have to assume that you know your audience and it is only through alot of first hand experience that you can overcome the narrowness of your expectations. When I play a show....hee hee I just wrote "When I play a shoe"......there is an audience that exists in my mind and 99% of the time it is right in front of me. Mostly white, mostly young, mostly men. strange. Point? Point: how does one play for a greater audience...not bigger in reality but bigger in your head. Like little village living girls from Cambodia? Probably not too many into Free Improvisation the way it manifests itself in Portland OR. Yet they should be. Access is universal in the real artists. context is important but there is a universal context that I am aiming for. 1000hz is still 1000hz if you are in Mollala or Botswana. more to think about for later...

Nice time playing lately. I have had a great week we just got back from touring the NW. Many shows many playing opps.
I would like to say here in print that playing with Bill Horist was positively surreal. It was like a double progrock freeball extravaganza!!
And furthermore:

take this chalice

Soink..shimmy up the rumpet slamming
less lee thrown our outs over to
slid down shiny packages.
Without further adult intervenshun.
Inspect this fine tooth comb.
crime lad/b tub.

Invited not invited uninvited forgotten
slipped my mind a convenient and
irrefutable excuse every time..
"They really were there"
real emotions=real tears
Agricultural index makes
poor cell mate but tidy.

And finally, what is more there is a whole lot of bullshit going on right now with cosmic heaviness so WATCH YOUR BACK!!!!
The triangles and squares in the sky are getting tight...T-I-G-H-T so do exercise...strech your groin muscles! slip a mickey to yourself and lay low for a few days ....I heard it on the radio KBOO they said that the big square of the moon and something is gonna fuck your shit up...but the big triangle of Watusi and something will make it all good so hold tight and get right cause the Now Is The Time and Charlie Parker is still dead.

Soap in my
eyes again
or maybe not
soap but
prayers to
lotteries,
slipages in
pipes, frankness
on the part
of friends.
Seldom seen.

Wonderful!
You made
clay in small
batches. Fill
the holes and
slip your
hands under
your gilded
ass. The rent
is still due
on the first.

ay carumba what a day...7 trillion things to do. not the least of which is laundry. So we are going on tour again and heres what it looks like so far feb:::::> 2nd Spokane 3rd Bellingham 4th Seattle 5th Seattle 6th Tacoma 7th Olympia

thanks to Bryan and all his hard work and God and the Oscar Committee.....hopefully my godparents can come see us in tacoma!!

oh yeah by the way the banana in my eye was really what was to blame for all the mixups today:

Another day of waiting. Waiting for this waiting for that. I am looking for work as a waiter. I HATE waiting. What am I thinking?? I guess that the irony is that there is no such a thing as waiting when you are a waiter...or in life for that matter.
another picture:


"VOULEZ VOUS COUCHEZ AVEC MOI?"

Please be aware that I will be fiddling with the HTML of this page over the next little while and hopefully will be getting it "just right".
Your patience is greatly appreciated. here is a nice picture for your "edification":

Reuniting with the Super Unity but only three at a time and facing possible dissolution of physical unity in place of solely psychic/spiritual unity. Sock monkeys never had it this hard! Never said its a sock monkey life....and furthermore I just listened to The Spiritual by AEOC and let me tell you!! its like burning rubber.

I just found this site that has alot of links to all kinds of info about Improvisation...not all good but not all bad like our memories of Jimmy Carter.......http://kalvos.org/mres20.html
love

There is a curious convergence of energies right now..from the guy who lost both girlfriend and job in 2 days to guy who ODs and gets needle-in-heart-treatment: all amongst the circles of my aquaintance. Time and snow all make a seemingly irrepeatable pattern but pattern nonetheless. Mostly the PMA is wearing thin and selfishness is the path of least resistance, vive la resistance!

Terrible frailties shimmering
beneath barely-confidence
Under micro-inspection
confidence layers frailty layers
all together acceptance of
who you/I now pancake:
More Butter? More Butter!
More Syrup? More Syrup!
You like? I like!

oh yeah the other thing

I need work
I like to cook and smile
I will dance a jig if necessary
no makeup...please

much time has passed

I am not great at consistancy good thing this is for me.

another poem:

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Uneven, even standing and
jerky walking. Don’t buy but
how?

NW Sixth Ave.
Search the cracks
and a coke
or run for Irish eyes
ugly hair and a basket
and what about the tie?
An out-of-paint
multiple personality disorder.